The answer is “not really”. I chose to take Calculus III as my lone summer class, you know, since it’s a class that deserves much time and care from every student. But what I didn’t know is that it would suck my time like a parasite, just clinging on, constantly urging me to do more equations… just one more equation…

I’m not trying too hard with it. Maybe calculus is something I might need to implement in a future career, but honestly, if it is, you’ll find me hanging from a lamppost before I choose that career. I’ll make a rope out of all the money I get out of it.

So instead, I’m trying to put it out of my mind. The other portion of my summer’s free time has been spent writing/recording music. Instead of choosing the money route, I’m going down the artistic one… there’s something to be said for not letting your robotic needs dominate your thoughts, and money is one of those. Creating art, however… allows you to refill your senses in case they forgot why you’re even on this spinning rock at all, just one in a billion little ants. Then I guess you start comparing your art to others’… but that’s letting money and attention get in the way again when they don’t really matter. They’re the most basic urges we have to overcome.

Sometimes you just feel like a lifeless robot… and painting a picture or recording a song is like taking a fragment of your soul and realizing it into something your senses can actually detect. So you know it’s actually still there.